The teacher was pretty much encouraging & nice.
& now, I'm motivated to do well in Amath!
Wow, like finally eh! :D
I discovered something about myself today.
I only listen to someone when they use the 'soft' method on me.
Meaning, playing the mind game, & not using scolding/demanding/commanding.
Well, maybe I'm one of the few.
Haven't been in a good mood the past few days.
All thanks to you- both.
You guys never understood.
& I doubt you would ever.
Maybe I've been too gullible to believe those words you said.
Although I knew it would be a miracle if that really happened, I chose to believe.
& I think that was a grave mistake afterall.
'Cos you only made me even more disappointed than before.
What did I do to deserve all these?
I tried.
I really did.
But it seems that nothing I do would ever make a difference, would it?
What is the damn reason for the difference between what I go through & the others?
I refuse to believe He wouldn't do anything to improve the situation.
I'll pray. I'll believe. I'll wait.
But exactly when would this long-waited dream come through?
Or my torture would only end when I choose to end this whole episode?
I hate to be heartless.
But I guess I'll have to be- for my own sake.
So I'll be the villian. You'll be the angel.
Maybe it'll hurt.
Or maybe you wouldn't even give a heck about what I do.
In any case, I'm sorry.
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