Adeline's

Studying Is A Chore




Boredom Kills
3 more papers to go.
& counting.
With O Level approaching in about just a month's time, I must admit I'm mentally insane to feel all so relaxed.
Don't blame me 'cos I've never mugged in my entire life before.
All I do before exams is to read the unmistakenly interesting textbook & poof; off I go to seat for the papers.
Laugh as you might, but I ain't lying.
I'll have an extended weekend next week & I don't feel excited for it.
I used to look forward to the end of exams but it's a total different story now.
Maybe I don't give a damn about it, maybe I'm numb, or maybe I've grown to be emotionless these days.
I haven't been feeling any emotions lately, & it's scary.
No happiness, no anxiety, no sadness nor anger.
That's me- a walking zombie.

I'm so fed up with that brain of mine.
It loves to think about those senseless things; reminiscing the past, harping on the present & picturing the future.
I know I know, it's pointless to think about these things 'cos there's no way I can do anything to avert it.
What has happened cannot be changed, everything that is happening cannot be explained & anything that's going to happen is out of my control.
Still, I can't help it. Maybe thinking is a reflex action for me (Omg, Adeline remembers her Bio)
On the otherhand, it just refuse to store any information which might be of help during horrible exam periods which explains the plight I am in now.

Alright, let's just flunk everything, anything.





The unspoken desire implanted deep within.